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What is your biggest fear? 

Have you ever read one of my posts and thought, I wonder what she is like underneath all of the positive? Underneath the awareness and “mom life” Who Is Madisun?

HI I AM MADISUN, AND YOU ARE ABOUT TO FIND OUT! I am never intentionally dishonest, but I do tend to water down my messages as I don't want to scare people away.  Today is not that day. I am a mom, I feel as though I have always been a mom, I am on an 8 path in life, and yet I am an Aires through and through. I have a temper, I get angry, I am extraordinarily protective of my loved ones and no I am not afraid to fight.  I love to spend time with people, make acquaintances and even friends, but I love curling up on the couch with a good book, movie or show just as much. I am an extroverted introvert, I love to be around people but as soon as the novelty wears off then I just want to go home.  MY passions include making the world a better place starting with myself, my family, my clients and eventually speaking at events to change the world through the masses.  

I might be selling myself short, but at the end of the day I see the earth crying out for change, I see humanity poisoning themselves and other animals and I see the desperation in the air.  I see the toxic vibrations and the loving vibrations and I strive to cure the energy field that is earth. I strive to raise loving, intuitive and strong children that spread love and light everywhere they go.  I strive to inspire love by loving, respect by respecting and joy by being joyful.

Under all of that I have the crippling fear that I will never inspire the change because “I am not ready” and “this can't be my purpose I'm too scared.” BUT here I am Showing UP!  So hey, I am Madisun and this is my deepest fear! 

Love,

Madisun Chambers-Roth

Change is Hard and Why it's Uncomfortable

We all know that Change is inevitable in life, business and all that exists, so why is change so hard?

When we, as a community really take the time to look at change, we must also examine what we will feel in regards to that change.  At the center of the concept, change itself is an uncomfortable feeling derived from stepping outside of your comfort zone and attempting to shift your perspective, your reality or your future.  The uncomfortable feelings that we most likely feel are: uncertainty, fear and even anger or disappointment.  These are all natural reactions to change and acceptable neuro-responses to the unknown variables that change invariably presents.  Change is one of the hardest decisions and most terrifying action you will ever take, but it is also the most necessary and rewarding.

Change begins with a decision that what is happening right now is not serving your vision for 5 minutes from now, tomorrow, next week or even next year.  Change starts simply enough, but in time we find that change is inevitable and if YOU don't decide to direct the changes in your life to serve you then God/the universe/your higher power will use change to direct YOU.  What do I mean by this exactly?  For an example, I will use my life:
Growing up I believed that everything from food, water, clothes, a bed was a privilege to be earned and not a basic human right.  When I was in foster care when I was 15 it was the first time I had ever been unafraid of not having these basic necessities.  Did it take time for me to unlearn the fear of "if I don't eat this and more I might not eat tomorrow" or "if I don't wash my hair well enough tonight I might not get a warm shower this week at all?" yes.  I gained a ton of wight from gorging on food, I was often too clean, I washed my sheets every week because I revelled in the "clean sheet smell" that was so rare in my life.  I was forced to change my actions and core beliefs about the value of human life, my life and the lives of others.  I was forced to re-evaluate what powers people "in charge" really have.  I never really had a good example of what parenting is, and that is blatantly obvious in the way I parent my own children.  Today I chose to change that, break that cycle and be the AMAZING mama that I can be (in this case step-mama).  I broke down, one of my kids was being herself, loud, obnoxious, disobedient, argumentative you name it. I tried to be "nice" and explain what I needed from her over and over, and then I snapped, I reverted to the yelling and fighting back that I don't wish to continue.  Then I got mad, not at her, at myself.  I broke down completely and in that I did what I do when the anxiety takes over: cleaning.  I wasn't able to articulate, so I just started scrubbing.  My husband took on the role of explaining to our child why I was angry, why he was angry and the consequences of the situation leaving her and I do face this alone.  She helped me clean, she asked questions and as we cleaned I opened up to her, "hey, I am really mad at myself for yelling at you like that and it is never okay to do that to another human being, I am so sorry." which was the change moment, the terror kicked in, my mind circled "this gives her fuel to use against you/ this tells her how to get to you/ this opens you up to look like a bad parent/ this isn't what power looks like" but her reply, "I know, I am so sorry I wasn't listening I get really hyper.  Its hard." and from there, at that moment we both chose to change.

That is the key, I have to now consistently remind myself that raising a daughter who fears me is not my objective.  Raising a daughter who trusts me to protect her physical body, meet her needs and help guard her heart while acknowledging her for WHO she truly is, that is MY objective.  Raising a daughter who knows that true power does not come from fear, but rather comes from love is my goal as a girl mom.  Raising a daughter who goes on to be exactly who she is, no matter how the world tries to define her, that is my goal.  Will I revert back to the old habits, the trauma moments where I react from a place of instinct? Most likely.  Will I choose to do better each day, love better each moment and parent better each second as well? Absolutely.  Does this terrify me? YES.
Change is the most difficult thing you can do, because change requires YOU to embrace your fear in the moment that is now, and decide that it is worth it to move forward in a way that intentionally directs YOUR life to meet and exceed your own objectives.

Maybe your objective is simply "be more organized" and so you go and you purchase organizing tools, or you make them and you organize 1 part of your home.  Do you then go and criticize every other room in your home? Maybe, but in all actuality you Can organize every room or only one and still meet your objective.  Change is a process, so no matter how small you believe your objective is, the change will inevitably be uncomfortable.  It may be a simple action to pick up your child's toys and organize them, but finding their favorite stuffy may take longer that night.  The more you embrace the changes you make in your life, the more natural the "chaos" of change becomes.
The terror may never quite go away, but embracing change does become easier as you practice it.  The reason I have given you these 2 examples is this: If I had not organized my pantry I would not have organized the toys, and if I had not organized the toys I would not have learned that cleaning brings me a sense of accomplishment and calm.  If I had not learned that cleaning calms me, I would not have chosen to clean as a way to reset my thought process and my husband would not have suggested the solution he did to today's problems.  You see, each change was hard and uncomfortable in some way, but my desire to direct my life was stronger than the in the moment discomfort.  Each decision to change in a way that intentionally guided my life into a more organized state, also guided my thoughts into a more organized state.  Each small decision to CHANGE built on each other so that my DESIRE to intentionally change to become my best self, constantly evolving and consistently embracing the discomfort of change was far stronger than the fear of changing my disorganized thinking and actions.  

As someone who has been changing my entire life, and observing my life choices from the young age of twelve when I first had to describe myself, my actions and the reasoning behind my actions to a professional, I am here to encourage you to change INTENTIONALLY.
Change because YOU want to be the writer, editor and publisher of your own story, that is your life.  Change because who you are right now, in this moment is not who you desire to be forever, and you know there is more out there for you.  Change because you are worthy of deciding who you are, what you stand for and how you portray yourself as.  Change intentionally so that one day, you embrace change as a constant and begin to evolve into who you always intended to be.  YOU are worthy of every dream in your heart and every wish you are terrified to utter, and you can have them with intentional, consistent change.  I am living proof of that.  

If you are at a place where you ALREADY have decided that you must change to become who you intend to be, but don't quite know what changes to start with: You are in LUCK!  I personally would LOVE to partner with YOU to help you to fine tune what changes you will decide to make at the cost of comfort but to gain a better tomorrow.  Partner with me, and lets create a better tomorrow together.  Click Here to Partner with Me to Create the Change You Want to See.

Much Love and Light,
Madisun Chambers-Roth

Introducing: Adopted Badass- Changing My Mind! By, Madisun Chambers-Roth LLC

What is trauma? It is any pain un-comfortability we feel that we carry with us. Why do we not want to keep that luggage? Because it keeps us stuck in the same repeating patterns, that’s why!

What builds character, and what breaks character? Why do some kids get bullied so badly they commit suicide, some commit homicide or acts of terror and still others grow up to face the world, change it and shape the constructs of morality?

All three groups went through generally the same torture, incessant teasing, getting pushed and shoved, called names, isolated and often labeled as “outcast” or other than the mas majority of their peers. What really differentiates these groups of children is exposure to other violence (at home), ability to escape into a new reality of video games, movies, music or books, access to weapons and knowledge of how to use them, family support and many other factors in the early years. None of these factors however, even begin to scratch the surface of the power of choice.

I was adopted along with 3 of my biological siblings, we all grew up in the same home all 4 of us spread across 5 short years, we all saw and heard basically the same things, had basically the same rules and survived by leaning on eachother. We could not be more different.

I have dedicated my life to helping others heal, renew and regenerate healthy brain chemistry and thought patterns to essentially choose to create a life full of joy, happiness and their own version of success.

Another sister has struggled with many substances, but that isn’t my story to share. She has resigned herself to a life of surviving, getting by and her pride comes from making it through each situation by herself and with her own power. If she can do it herself, she will, but if she cant she most likely will not ask for help. Success to her is singular.

Another sister is a joker, she can light up a room and make everyone laugh. She has a jesters heart, she relies on fair and equal, and she cant stand when it isn’t fair. This made our childhood particularly tough for her, but somehow she was able to find ways to laugh herself out of trouble. When I was 3 or 4 years old I was an angry spirit, filled with the weight of the injustices in the world. My mother used to play the song S-M-I-L-E by Cedarmont Kids and the verse we would always sing goes like this “It isn’t any trouble just to L-A-U-G-H, it isn’t any trouble just to L-A-U-G-H, so laugh when your in trouble it will vanish like a bubble, no it isn’t any trouble just to L-A-U-G-H.” I can totally see how that has shaped her subconscious mind to react to stress, anger, violence, fear, frustration and even desperation with laughter.

Another sister is one of the most honest people I know, she refused to hide who she is or was ever in her life, she lives openly and with complete integrity. To this day she cannot keep a secret, and I cant fault her for that as it is exactly who she is. She faced the least amount of abuse, but the financial situations that my parents have found themselves in, has shocked and saddened her, and yet her gratitude shines through it all. She wants to be and do better than anyone who came before her, to make this world a more loving place.

You see, each of us processed life through our own filters even from a very young age, trauma survival created a bond that seemed inseparable until it shattered. We thought we all were more similar than we are, and that shows in how we have individually processed our own traumas and decided to persue success in our ways.

My family may only be a small fraction of the world, but it is a demonstration of something we see repeatedly within society. No 2 people think the same, no 2 witnesses have the same story, no 2 minds process tragidy or fear the same and that means that no 2 souls have the exact same purpose.

What separates each of us is a single choice and our purpose. Do we follow our soul’s direction and find our purpose or do we stay with the group and cap out where society tells us to? And what is YOUR purpose?

Trauma, pain, emotional turmoil, confusion, groupthink and lack of vision happens to everyone. What you decide to do at each roadblock, hurdle or obstacle is what answers those questions.

My trauma is no greater than your trauma. My survival no more heroic than yours. If you believe you have wounds that need healing, then you do. If you believe that you have a purpose, then find it. I am here to help you heal and prepare to discover exactly what YOU are all about. There is no right way or wrong way to heal. In fact, I believe that each person needs something a little different than anyone else, and the magic recipe, that has worked for me is this: Support (for me this was my husband, but he expressed being unable to fix my pain was too big of a load, so I hired a life coach), Physical action (physical trainer who helped me to find ways to keep both my mind and body active, and I talked to a dietician as well about getting on track, then I worked with my trainer to combine these elements successfully) and spiritual and/or mental action (for me this was diving deeper into the universal laws, studying the overlaps in religions, and deciding what I believe, why I believe that and HOW I was going to create a life that expressed the power I had discovered). This will inevitably look different for each person, just as versatile as your traumas are, so will be your healing, but remember that you alone have the power to decide whether you will heal, grow and become the most amazing version of you or remain stuck and repeating the learned cycles of your past.

It is a decision only you can make, and an opportunity to live a life beyond what you believe you deserve today. I can help you get there, but only you can choose to walk the path or stand still.

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I am so glad YOU made it!

Hello Loves!
I am Madisun, I am that person, the one who walked the hard path. The one who learned the hard way. The one who hurt so bad the hurt spilled out and made all those around a bit uncomfortable too.  I am a mother and a wife. I struggle with finding new ways to motivate myself and stimulate my unending need to help others find peace, and love others well.
In all the places I have walked, in the darkest days and nights and in the deepest darkest corners of my own mind, my pain cannot outweigh my concern for others.
Why am I telling you (the internet) this?
Well, I am telling you because it is important that you know. It is important that when I open up about the pain I walked through, you know its because someone, maybe you, is walking through it. They feel alone, and maybe that someone isn't letting the pain spill out, but hiding it instead in the depths of their hearts. Maybe they think this makes them weak. But maybe, they will find this and KNOW its all okay.

The strength that we decide to have, the next step we choose to take and the breath we need but don't want is a turning point. We are all here on Earth for a reason. It is no coincidence that you are reading this now. This is what love is. Love is giving because giving feels good. Maybe you feel alone, unwanted, unloved, unlovable, isolated, reclusive or just plain tired of the world.  It is okay to take a rest, a deep soul rest. And rediscover who you are, what your highest potential is and who you can be. It is necessary to evaluate those things, it is also necessary to remove your lenses of hostility, fear, anger, resentment and even pain to see who you are at your most successful, most honest and truest form of yourself. You are worth it!

I am so glad you made it to today!
Love always!
Madisun Chambers-Roth

The Power Of Decision

Hello Friends! 

I am a woman who is 23 years old, currently residing with my in-laws with my biological son and my 2 bonus babies half of the time.  I am launching into 2020 with excitement and rigor!  I am so gratefull for all the lessons of my past, every trauma, every hurt, every lesson that has been presented and learned has led me to this day, this moment and this giant decision!  I have decided to go into 2020 and partner with those who are ready to change not only the thought paturns that have caused them great pain, but also the brain chemistry that so often keeps us locked into those thought paturns into habbits, routines and actions in our every day things. 

If you are here, reading this blog post: I believe that you have already begun to ponder your life, and strive for new thought processes!  I believe that the idea that living in the mindset of victimhood, lacking any control over your own mind and realizing that you are emotionally driven and not driving your emotions is pushing you to find pleasure in creating a life where YOU can decide what, who and how your circumstances effect you.  

If I can partner with you to help you find the most perfect combination literature, guidance, support and routine that is absolutely and completely indevidual, tailored and focused on you and your healing, reconcentrating and refocusing your thoughts and actions to best represent who you are at the very core of you.  

 

When we as humans decide that we are going to reclaim the power of our lives, by reclaiming the power over our feelings we unlock our potential for greatness.  There are so many ways that healing can and does happend, and so many decisions to make to create a healthy and happy reality.  I would like to invite YOU to join my class in May, and get yourself set onto the path of healing, partnership and freedom.  We will be covering Food Intake, Exersize, Coaching, Therapy, Faith and the Hard Work that must be done within your own mind and in your own way.  I offer you a starting point, 5 potential partners to start you on the path of healing! I invite YOU to begin your journey by Signing Up Today.


Love Always,
Madisun Chambers Roth

How Faith Fuels Healing

Faith- the fundamental belief that someone, something or some entity is looking out for you.  The recognition of order in the chaos.  The realization of not being alone.

Product of Disney

Maybe faith is born of religion, or understanding universal energies, maybe it's understanding the universal law of karma, and maybe it is simply a knowing that what you put out into the world, you attract more of.  Faith isn't a simple matter, but it doesn't need to be a complex one either. Faith is simply believing in the outcome, before it manifests into your life.
Do you remember watching Disney as a child?  I never really did, but as a young adult I remember thinking "there is someone out there waiting for me" and my husband remembers loving Aladdin because he was poor and yet good things always happened to him.  In the way that little girls wish to meet prince charming, and boys wish to find their princess and "just know" that she is the one, so works faith.  As you wish and believe, and work towards the desires of your heart the entire universe conspires to create what you seek.  God sees you doing good to others in act, in thought and in prayer and conspires for your success.  This is Faith!  Faith is realizing that there is something out there conspiring for you!

This is a picture of a solar powered flower, with glass petals, and my almost 2 year old toddler who absolutely KNOWS that the light bulb inside causes the flower to glow.  He wants to see how it works, so he peers into the flower, faithfully believing that it will glow. 

Being adults we can say that it glowed because of his shadow, but in his eyes this is a magical moment with no explanation.  If you believe as a homeless person that you will have a home in a year, and you decide to prepare for that home today, from applying to jobs, and reaching out to people you may have harmed in the past who still hold faith for you and ask for support (even just a shower and clean clothes for your interviews) you are acting in faith and the Universe will conspire to get you there.  God will conspire to get you there!  Faith is based on belief, and manifestation of your desires are based on faith based actions!  No situation is too tough, no trauma too deep, no wrong too horrible that with faith and INSPIRED action your life will remain stuck, in fact the contrary has been prove to be true.  Faith is belief, action is process, manifestation is fulfillment.  How faith is practiced however, is as unique as a finger print.
Some people kneel at the ends of their beds, head bowed in deep prayer while reciting incantations provided to them by a church,  Some kneel in the same position and hold deep heartfelt conversations with God.  Some take a few hours and a backpack with water and food, hike into the desolation and enjoy what God has already done.  Some, simply sit in peace and enjoy what is around them.  There are so many ways to practice faith and inspired action, and nobody can tell you what will or will not work for you.  But the basis of faith, is that a great and wonderful conspiracy is working in your favor.

Who doesn't want to wake up beside their soul mate?  Who doesn't want to live a life full of consistently better coincidences?  And who doesn't want to realize that this world is, and always has been, imperfect, flawed and a testing ground of principal?  this is one universe and one world, and beyond that we are pretty much clueless.  Why not faithfully enjoy the beauty, the wonders and the imperfections that are Earth, and the situations that we have faithfully manifested in this amazing dimension where what we think, believe and therefor act upon becomes our reality in the physical world? You can!  And I am so Excited to get you there! We Start in May! So mark you calendars!!!!! and sign up for the one-of-a-kind web series that will examine the lies that you believe, challenge your brain and begin to change the cycles of negativity that have manifested into your physical life! Get your tickets at early bird pricing through January!
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Love Always,
Madisun Chambers-Roth!

PTSD and the TRUTH of Healing

PTSD the Truth and the Healing Process of it All

When someone is exposed to a particularly horrifying event, or an exceptionally threatening Event they are at risk of developing PTSD.  While PTSD is a natural reaction to trauma in some people, in others Post Traumatic Stress does not develop.  In the 3% of the population that DOES have PTSD at any one time (1.9-8.8% of the population has a risk of PTSD in their lifetime), physical ailments often manifest with the extreme and repeated strain that comes with prolonged stress.  Poor physical health, psychiatric co-morbidity, increased suicide risk and the considerable economic burden for the care takers of the suffers of this horrible reaction to trauma that literally destroys the lives of those who suffer with it.

But there is hope!  Many PTSD sufferers have found relief in psychotherapies, medications and self-help, but most found relief with a combination of 2 or more of these programs.  Some of the therapies that have been found to help patients make headway into healing and complete recovery are:

Exposure Therapy:

Following a written or verbal narrative patients are encouraged to recount the traumatic event, feel the fear and still KNOW that they are safe. 

Cognitive Therapy:

Identify cognitive modifications the led to an over estimation of the current risk.

Modifying beliefs and behavior during trauma and the patients’ interpretation of those behaviors, including guilt and shame.

Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR):

Standardized trauma processing procedure using bilateral physical stimulation and hypnosis to integrate the targeted event as an adaptive, contextualized memory.

I have created a self help curriculum for all interested, I will be putting my website together and launching my first web series in the next 4 months! Some medications may be needed for anxiety and depression prevention, and it should be noted that the most patients found greater relief when combining treatment with medication and therapy with self-help.

I know I have dropped a ton of information on you and not a lot of personal experience, so if you are still with me here goes:

I was abused as a kid, so I overcame what is currently being called Complex PTSD, but I also was sexually assaulted when I was a young teenager by someone close to me.  When I had to go to court and really be presented with all the facts of the situation, I was overwhelmed all over again.  I have put in years of training my brain to simply survive in the world, to trust people and to function at an age appropriate level.  I had many diagnoses over the years, anxiety, depression and more, but I am standing here today to tell you that a medication free, fun and trust filled life where love is first and fear is last is possible!  Good physical and mental health are not goals so unattainable that survival must come before them, but in fact the very beginning to survival and learning to thrive beyond any and all traumas in our lives.  Maybe being an optimist would help, but I prefer to be a realist.  The work is harrowing, the pain is real and the life that you have waiting to be created by you is right there and the brush is within reach, so the choice is quite simple: are you going to paint the first stroke, or watch your canvas age?  It is up to you, and every step you take will determine the strokes you put onto your canvas.  Don’t worry though, because you can always reset your mind, start a new painting and create the life you always desired!  Take the first step today and start researching how you can begin to heal!

Take it from me, there is a better way to live and you are only 1 decision away from scrapping your old life full of victim-hood, pain, regret, self-hatred, self-blame and shame and choosing to live an empowered, whole, complete and love filled life where fear cant stop you and anger doesn’t destroy everything you touch!